Your estimated worry time is 4 weeks

My mammogram/ultrasound is 4/22 and the biopsy is one week after that.

This is making it hard to plan the latter part of my school semester. I’m assuming I’ll be able to finish my classes. Drop day is 4/11 so I hope so.

This thing does seem like it came out of nowhere rather quickly, although I am often oblivious. I don’t look in the mirror much and I don’t do stuff I should like self exams or regular checkups.

But it seems quite possible it’s one of the many things I’ve read about on the internet that are not that bad. The thing is, I feel PMSed for the first time in a year or so. I forgot how it feels like I’m DYING…. oh poor pitiful me.

Menopause was fun. That’s when stuff really went south at work. I did do my share. It’s amazing how much incredible rudeness in email, to my boss, in “front of” other people on the mailing list, that I got away with. This is how I came to know they wouldn’t fire me or anyone else. But boss asked for it, and I think other people were living vicariously through me. He made so much work for other people just by being incoherent.

But he’s still there, he still gets paid the big bucks, and he still “works from home” by sending one email in a day and claiming to read stuff from Microsoft. No one wants to read stuff from Microsoft so they don’t bother him.

Yes I’m blithering. Um I did have another family thing I’ve been meaning to share, and it also relates to being oblivious about one’s body.

When I was growing up I always heard this story about a woman who was So Fat that she did not know she was pregnant until she had pains and then a baby came out. I always thought this was some 8th hand story that everyone knew. I was horrified when I grew up and my mom happened to mention it was her cousin.

So I can see how I might miss a lump for a few months. Oh well. I’m sure it will be fine and if not, well… I always wanted to try being bald for a while.