Rash
I know I need to post, I want to post, but I keep getting confused about what I want to post about.
There’s this rash. What happened was, I got over my radiation burn, I got the flu. I got over the flu, I did some yard work, and then I got this rash. Around the same time, I read something that happened to someone else, and spent some time rubbing on my scar tissue and thinking “Oh I hope that doesn’t happen to me.” So maybe I got something on my hands in the yard and then rubbed it obsessively into my skin.
Also in the weeks preceding I had been getting really paranoid at work. I was convinced people were checking up on me, and I was expressing it on facebook and was rude to some people who deserved it. Now I think I really was picking up on something, since the department got merged and my bosses got changed without me knowing about it ahead of time. And maybe I gave myself hives. I had hives one other time, when I had accepted a new job, but had not given notice or told the people I was friends with at the old job. When I gave notice the hives went away.
And I just seem to have old lady, dry, sensitive skin, now. The upshot is I’ve spent the last 9 weeks rubbing various things into my skin. The rash will seem to die back and then will reappear in the areas right next to where it was. I hope it will only “go around” one time.
So there’s the rash, and then there’s work. I sort of feel like doing a timeline of this job, trying to get it all into one blog with the bare details. It’s pretty boring but maybe it would make the stupid hives go away. Except, I’m nervous someone from there will find this blog… so I don’t want to do anything rash.
Have you asked a doctor about it? I may be wrong, but I always thought that hives didn’t last very long. Like, I thought they went away within a few hours. Or are there different types of hives? Anyway, that does suck and I hope it goes away. It would make sense if it was related to stress, I suppose.
The oncologist and radiation docs say it’s nothing to do with that stuff. The “regular doctor” looked, said “yup you got a rash” and gave me a shot in the butt, which did nothing. The onc offered to refer me to a dermatologist but she also agreed they would tell me to do what I’m doing…. I may give up and go back to the regular doc soon. But, I think it’s nerves exacerbated by an addiction to scratching. I can get addicted to *anything*…
Sounds like it’s just a little stress… and a little more stress, and then some stress, and a bit of stress, and stress on top of stress on top of…
It’s amazing what stress will do to the body. And somehow it finds the worst possible thing to put you through. Which of course adds more stress.
I prescribe fun. A fun night, a fun weekend, whatever you can squeeze in. Maybe it’ll work, maybe it won’t, but in the meantime you’ll have fun, and that can’t be all bad.
Stress was a good bet, but if it was stress it was never gonna go away :-p so I’m voting for the lanolin (see next blog.)
I’ve had a little fun lately, though. I hope you have some too.